Lynne Santos

04/10/99

How did you gauge your body as an average on a scale of 1 to 10 (1 being very low, 10 being very high) in terms of the following parameters during the day:-
Temperature Range: 6
Density:7
Energy Level:5
Speed:4

What are your main observations and/or experiences from the MB?
I had more energy today because of 2 days break from MB. I think at times I should play with the MB, find the pleasure in it. This lifts my energy and also keeps my body and focus more open.

What are your main observations and/or experiences from the Manipulations?
My body was quite relaxed so I could release into my partner's pressure. However my knees were quite sore so I pulled back from the knee manipulations.

What are your main observations and/or experiences from the Ground Work?
We did the "bag of bones' exercise. Then the passive person relived the experience. I found this very hard. It feels like I have to use a different mind body relationship to when I am actually being moved by other people; that a different faculty is at work. It was hard to completely release into the experience of being moved by others because I knew I was going to have to recall this experience on my own. This set up a tension in my body, created a subtle conflict between mind and body. The body wants to simply enjoy the sensations and the mind wants to record them. With the thermal image and the water image I tried to break up the symmetry of my body. This is a habit, my mind has less to monitor when my body is symmetrical and my mind likes to maintain order and control. I was also aware that now I have done these images a few times I am falling into a habitual way of embodying them. As if I want to perfect the form I have made for these images. Time to challenge how I represent these images. Tess suggested that the body could be a few different currents simultaneously. My reaction was to not act on this comment- I am so conservative! One thing at a time!

What are your main observations and/or experiences of the whole day?
Again I was aware today of the power of the habitual mind. Again I want to approach this work with a mix of emptiness and a sense of play, abandone. I take it all so seriously.

 

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