Esther Mugambi

27/09/99

How did you gauge your body as an average on a scale of 1 to 10 (1 being very low, 10 being very high) in terms of the following parameters during the day:-
Temperature Range:4-6
Density:3-5
Energy Level:3-5
Speed:5-6

What are your main observations and/or experiences from the MB?
No MB today and I appreciated a rest but felt a bit sluggish.

What are your main observations and/or experiences from the Manipulations?
My breath was weak for 1 and 2 - feeling too inactive - but tried to breath deeper for 3 and 4. Talked to my partner about tricky things like putting pressure on stomach, how much, where abouts etc. The topic of alignment came up a lot - when there's a difference between what feels straight and what is straight and what to do to the lying body to let them know there is a difference without forcing anything.

What are your main observations and/or experiences from the Ground Work?
Today's Bisoku speed was torturous as usual, I'm always surprised by how physically challenging an exercise it is. Trying to develop a momentum forward at slow speed is agony! The chest/hand exercise took me some time to get used to but after experimenting with small and big distances from the hand I was able to build a connection. I think it is more worthwhile as a leader to start easily, not introducing challenges that may break the connection because, frankly, it's demoralising! My main memory of being blind is the sense of dependence, waiting for an instruction, the complete passivity. Although there is intense activity in making decisions, listening, feeling etc I remember the feeling of powerlessness knowing others are watching me not being able to watch anything. In an environment less safe than this, it would be paralysing, well, ok inhibiting.

What are your main observations and/or experiences of the whole day?
I have been thinking more about leading than following, how to stimulate your partner, make them think about the decisions they habitually make, allow them an entrance point to try something new.

 

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